Friday, May 2, 2014

Equanimity and the Problem of Free Will, or How to Survive and Sustain as an Inter-Dimensional Self

My universe will exist as long as I live, and I must pay attention to its suggestion.
The body is a temple, and within it must be made as little and as much sacrifice as necessary, and the totals of these polarized abbuses and excesses may be that necessary for survival. Nothing can or will destroy itself, and that desire for change, that will to harmonize with the world, is that will itself, able to look in or out but never both at once to the flat, ineffable plane.
Time is the factor. This idea of change and how we cause and are caused by it. Nothing is entirely and solely itself because of this passage, and because of our flowing perception, to us things are and must only exist as they are in this moment, or our and every entire existence is nullified.
Meaning is lost through our own filters, that which we inflict upon ourselves and is passing, so not timeless, and beyond left to necessarily filtered interpretation. Even memories of things are augmented by current digestiong, anxiety, and company, etc.
These toxins we align ourselves with, are all bad in excess. . .
We were born with nothing and will die with that exact amount, and life is made up of every something and its neutralizing, necessary suffering. Every pain we endure is remnant of pleasure enjoyed, the necessary sacrifice.
There are 2 powers to every individual, a higher and a lower power. To pursue one, they must realize the other, so verifying the action of pursuit.
Everything in women is designed for men to realize the two, for women are "the two", as everything in men is designed for women to realize as the one, for they are "the one."
In separation of soul from body, all man and woman alike are realized the same, as the soul itself is the source of power.
Natural selection is designed, and the creatures and systems with the best design are, ideally, being naturally selected. that's survival of the fittest. It is clear that we are at the top of the current "food chain", or consumption bracket. But now, because we fight each other and seemingly automatically seek comfort, we have hit a road block. This is how past civilizations fall. It will take a cataclysm for all of us to believe in god, because thats what it will take to wipe out the nonbelievers.
Positive direction systematically eliminates misunderstanding, challenge, exclusion, violence, judgment and fear.
Sometimes, in answer to laziness, I find the secret is to never become comfortable, but I am also aware of the moderation I must strive for to avoid wearing myself out. I have come to workaholic breaking points, supplemented with bouts of self indulgence, and then neglect, like when i don't eat candy for awhile, then have a bag of gummi bears, freak out for fifteen minutes and incessantly drink water to recover for the next two hours. Everything happens in bursts, and too often I have admitted a transitory change too early as a lifelong one, like with quitting smoking or procrastinating.
This is not fun for me anymore, I'm losing my life. I need to quit smoking so I may get out of this god forsaken place, but before I do that I need to quit the band because it's not helping anything. I can't pretend we have a good, healthy, truly productive relationship. I love music, we all do, but we're exploiting ourselves, each other, and everyone else at a terrible, hate filled expense. I'm becoming an asshole, losing the people in my life that I love and only expecting something from the rest.
You have big plans, so do I. They are not the same.
I'm still young enough that I can do what I want without sacrificing my family, friends and self, but we're forcing it, living on the pins and needles of ill communication. I need to get out while I can still breathe, before I ruin music for myself.
I watched it happen, the craving disappeared, the function was synthesized. JUST IMPETUS
It kills me to see us living so destructively, like we could rise above this vortex. Or maybe we talk to much, talk ourselves in circles. Qualitatively, I'm not that selfish. The toxins are talking. I talk sin when i can't help myself.
I'm an improv player. I know its not necessarily easy to make something that sounds good, but like anything else all it takes is time and effort.
What if you're having fun while flying? How fast do you have fun for time to reach the speed of light?
To be yourself is a godly path and choice, as it is not a devilish one. But as that path is not godly, it is devilish, for no percievable path, or any other aspect of perception, is totally good or bad.
The reason for life is to find a reason for life which will explain: If this is my only chance. . . what's that?
The purpose of government should be to liquidate a country's assets for its own greatest good, to turn goods into good. We don't export goods anymore. We've found the good in bads. We were brought here by past expectations.
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sovereignty, love, pain, this is a good idea, my helf is a concern, self-ish, A BEAUTIFUL THING. Ive smoked my share of cigarettes to this point, and though I may not have deserved it I do now, and will continue with enjoyment. consume! buy! product!
My grandma thinks I will be to bored in Port Harbour. I wish now that I had argued with her in that moment for externalised intrinsic sublimation, which is mainly what Ive found while living in the city.
I can't believe this chicken scratch could be considered dangerous, but it only is to me and those who believe my words. VICTIMHOOD, not, LOST IN THIS, CHAIN REACTION, SELF SUSTAINING, SATISFACTION, form follows function, STICKS and STONES, SUTCK INDOORS, BENEATH A LIGHT, IN MY CANVAS, BEING BLIND, no thy self, peas, littlegetting, BENEATHALIGHT, you kant hide, from a god, whos not, lookin, bedbugs, inconvenience
Why is the drunk driver the one to walk away from the accident? Why do good things happen to bad people? Why should a select few get all the good shit?
Before money, it was much more common for one to follow in their parents footsteps, inheriting family trades and land. These expectations still exist, but the promise of becoming, of manifest destiny, augments the dream, therefore the life, of both parent and child independently.
I still recieve checks on holidays from both grandmothers, and the marijuana I would otherwise present goods and services for, I can displace my guilt by working an honest job for honest pay, to pieces of what
"She was right I am like two people Mommy and daddy He had the knowledge and he had the love though we three tried our best to share both we could only ever pay attention to one And now that theyre gone I love to know and know to love. But where did I go?" I thought. I must have stumbled upon the answer without realizing it. "Is this separation truly necessary? Why shouldn't I give in?"
The fact of the matter was that I had learned my lesson, but that didn't mean I was learning my lesson still, let alone anyone else'. What I had done paled in comparison to what I wasn't doing. My world was turned upside down. your word's not mine
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We may never have what we want, whatever it is, we may not have it. We are healthier and grow older than we may have been if we didn't have knowledge and materials that we do, but these materials and knowledge cause just as much detriment in excess as they do in abscence. Nothing has changed, only our perception has changed, and if this thing, our perception, is regarded as a changed thing, the elements which it is bound equally, inevitably is changed.
Positive Psychology studies happiness in the environment, outside of and opposing to the observing scientist, who therefore reciprocates unwittingly.
Tabula rasa Extension: Something, to be learned, first must be universally unlearned, revealed to be discovered and realized by the observer.
Truth must be pursued, because as much as we each hold evident truth, as everyone does their best with what they have, it actually exists as fluid and unpredictable as happiness, success, and pursuit itself.
Pursuing truth is ensuing happiness, pursuing happiness is inviting death. "The foremost reason happiness is so hard to achieve is that the universe was not designed with the comfort of human beings in mind." Implication of intelligent design (mind), comfort as happiness as the opposite of discontent
Considering mankinds turmoil, props on completing the book. I hope you're happy, you haven't changed a thing.
The universe is only indifferent because it balances itself, it is equal proportion of yes and no. You may realize who I am, but he will not until I am no longer. Its not a state to be reached as much as simply realized and perpetuated.
The quality of life is based on attitude, and is different in some aspect for everyone. Identity is recursive evidence of free will. Contradiction is existence.
You can't support a part without supporting the whole.
"To be or not to be, that is the question." "To be and not to be, that is the answer." In the beginning was creation. Something came from nothing. I think you had to have been there, like anything else for it to make sense. Now, we have to make sense of it for ourselves, and not. When we are born, we become seperate people, perceptions filtering the universe, becoming worlds.
Someone may have asked you whether The Glass is half full or empty, or mindlessly quoted Shakespeare. If to be or not to be is the question, then to be and not to be is the answer. If the question were a yes or no question, in other words, the answer would be no.
Do we jump the fence and fuck the grass, only to enviously watch nature level our untended gardens? When I think of webehebe, he gives me the heebeejeebeeS
I don't want to feel sorry for myself but I have to because I don't have anyone else to feel sorry for. I pushed her away and I don't want her back because I'm scared it will be different but I will never change. I want to suffer just for myself, I want to give up expectation, I want to make seperate individual holes I want someone to hear and understand, someone as beautiful as I remember, someone I don't want to fuck over and leave. I am someone, I have ability, and with everything i do, a new guiding voice, a new expectation.
It can only come out of pain, for my camera, so i can remember who I am, so i can learn from my history and help the children. What children? Why does this feel good? Do I need to start over? May it be that simple? How can I afford to go away? Its my only chance, my only choice between one or the other, always right in terms of what I'm looking at. I've been there before, They'll laugh at me, until I do something. Then they'll cry and wont believe what I have done. And I'll go far from tears to laughs. Maybe we were understood at some centerpoint.
The world and all things within are finite only in the present tense, when they are presentor presently concieved in thought. What is true but perpetuated present? Only individuals have growth rates of zero, relative to the constantly fluctuating systems surrounding.
There is an infinitely complex fine line running through everything that makes all the difference in the universe. It separates every thought, every perception, into an indecipherable mountain of layers. This is duality. We can't think of more than 2 things at any one time, point a and point b. Every electrical pulse in your brain is trading from one to another, our concept of time is moving from the past to the future. It is actually our mind that breaks down the concepts into 2 parts, because we percieve direction, movement, vibration.
I never had the ideal father; the ideal father doesn't exist. On outings, it'd be strange if he came along, it'd be an awkward special event if he took us anywhere. My mother, my siblings and I were happy enough without him as our group, and I don't blame him for feeling left out. Our mother saturated us with her opinions of him, so the thing I did notice about him came with a negative spin. My own father was a mysterious joke to me. The best father is the one who doesn't have children.
I have ultimate happiness and confidence and not only is it free, it's better. It causes me to spend less money to the point where the thing I was always worried about, I never am now.
Presage: predict, give a warning of
People do things to save their comfort, homes, countries, their own butts, and other people. If there's any one reason, they're sacrificing a better world for all reasons left unconsidered. The only way to combat hypocrisy is to do your best. Assholes can be honest, the nicest people can lie to your face. Miracles can't happen until you can imagine them.
Drugs keep us here, as much as any other thing does, we take our chances, with glass of water, qwestions and ancers. Im not ready, for another, tattoo I just, got here. q q q I dontrust, I dontburn, I dontfuck, I dontlurn. innocent, preservation, its going to be a hot summer. dont marry your wannas dont ab use, IM IT, nothing, all in my hebd
itll be very interesting, to see how you twist, my words and use them, against me.
Im wruindd, Ive seen enouf, harmful harmful harmful stuff. pretty ass a picture. Life is beautiful while youre young, but dont ask why
The only thing that makes love real is our perception. A world without love is not worth experiencing. Misperception of love is common. To say any one thing is the reason the world goes round is only part of the truth when we can actually trace to our personal love for the thing. Yes, it might make our own world go round, and therefore the rest of the world, but the "therefore"  when we declare what makes the world go rould, we reveal our perception.
In a world where love does not exist, which we can only imagine, is a world without consciousness, which can only exist because within our imagination. A world completely disconnected from consciousness does not exist.
Love is the positive direction of human experience. From our perspective as humans, it makes everything happen. A version of love is the ultimate reason anything happens. It is a human word
Everything happens for a reason, even if the particular reason is only obvious from a withdrawn viewpoint, such as through the passage of time or desensitization. Our physical world is governed by cause and effect. Everything that happens within nature, including human function, has good and bad elements, but the ultimate reason humans do anything is love.
I'm here to preserve the legacy that we have distracted ourselves from. This life goes beyond any one man, group, religion, economy, country, corporation, law, world, beyond everything we know, beyond everything we don't know and never will. Science is a distraction, man's discovery of the simplest forms of natural creation. Invention is manipulation.
This is our world to manipulate, to create or destroy. Every act of destruction means death for everyone.
Science doesn't prove; it only disproves (history proves). We mustnt separate ourselves anymore. We can have what we want, but it has to be for the best for everything. Want for yourself is destruction, greed. I am preventhing imminent doom. We must practice to work together, to live together, in perfect harmony. Evil is on the way, more evil than we understand, and we need to get past our own problems so we can deal with them. We need to stop interrupting the beautiful flow. It's not about running away, hiding from the world. You can't, you'll always be in it. We need to know ourselves, so we can know others. So we can know the world.
Idolator. Imbroglio. We must be friendly, we must know each other, so we can work together. If we don't, we can't ask for help, and we can't help each other. We mustn't panic, there's no  reason to.