ADM Pt. 3

                I heard about these watches that only work when you move. I didn’t believe it at first, because it sounded so very inefficient. But don’t forget; I invented the quantum generator, which happens to regularly produce future.

youth and meth

affantasee

prove in true

light alarm

six impossible things

choose your warden

Doowopoly (you mean to tell me theres two of them?!)

Gargle Garbage Jargon Garage

super intricate machines that do absolutely nothing: the Rube Goldberg compilation presentation

pulleys, levers, weighted scales and platforms.

I cannot depend upon anybody nor anyone in order to get everything that I want.

I cannot depend upon anybody nor anyone in order to get everything that I want.

Apparently I must be extremely specific of my terms if I choose to invest myself. Money is a cliche which I cannot afford. If I expect to do something great then I must maintain the proper motivation. Of safety and success, I must perform at a level to surpass better than the best. Unable to account for the waste of others. So tired of what I don’t quite understand. All prejudice within the field aside. The difference engine a finishing tool. Insiders paradigm countering immortality.

the Insandental Nature of Fire

            neutral

            equivalent

Each and every iteration

only perceptably similar

We have forgotten what it is

to listen to ourselves.

What is the difference

between addiction and obsession

I had a dream with marshmallows in it, wasn’t sure if it was real. The underboob kept me dancing around the subject, unwilling or unable to feel.

Music Philosophy

hempwick

jonbarhinge

good to know

rules

transcend the emulation

pharmhouse/madhaus (just in case, midas well)

hyperredundant

bred for breeding

A dark soul

has cast a wicked spell

across this fine field

so that nothing will grow

Catpitalism (catipulism) (catnipulism)

X²=(X+1)(X-1)+1

7²=(7+1)(7-1)+1

49=(8)(6)+1

49=48+1

9²=(9+1)(9-1)+1

81=(10)(8)+1

81=80+1

12²=(12+1)(12-1)+1

144=(13)(11)+1

144=143+1

1²=(1+1)(1-1)+1

1=(2)(0)+1

1=0+1

-10²=(-10+1)(-10-1)+1

100=(-9)(-11)+1

100=99+1

The most important rule of good writing is:

1. Be concise

2. Say exactly what you mean

3. Remove all any unnecessary information

Work is what you do alone. That being said, it’s better with someone. The difference is your decisions. Prayer transcends both.

The tyrants tyrade, a torrent torment

A messenger, a diplomat, of the other world, coming into being

duality, dichotomy, a finite interest

King of cups, Ship of fools

virtually incapable of winning

I’M WASTING THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE

Wears my hat

Familiars, Home Jukebox

Cancer Sucks

exploitating the mailbox dilemma

the tock is clicking

good brother don’t you know me? I’m your friend or enemy. Not here to tell you what to do, can’t cope with your inventive style. Predilective perfunctory denizens. Couldn’t tell which hand from another.

            SPOTTER

telephone ettiquette

toilette posture

first word problemns

Saviour Self in Scare City

a dollar for

everything I do

the server decides

what constitutes action

I don’t consider the people who know me to be relatively lucky, in fact I have no speculation as to their general disposition. The streets downtown smell like burned piss under the orange nightlights. We find no relief no matter what the sanitation crew may do.

            amscray

Beach Things!

HATIUS

the lock and the latch

schismodic, schismatic

promise   unverse   suprise

smudgepot

Mary wanna cracker

Shame TV

Every Channel

No Commercials

Breaking News

Tragedy Comedy

Infancy look at me

American Courses

Virtual Tangibility

Instrumental

elemental

essential

integral

spoonvelope

universality

eyes of my father

diffuse diverse

Smoke Screen

Shutter Flutter

Ruining Sandwiches

Pure Culture

Play to the room

Global Reset

Pop Top Fingernail

FrAgile BreATh

Tree Trouble

Ice Cream Socialism

Cross Contamination

defense against each other,

            defense against ourselves

how can I expect anyone to take myself seriously if I can’t take myself seriously

Growing up is Expensive

Partisan Party

Why did the vigilante leave money for

the house band at the fish restaurant?

He was tipping the scales.

TRANSCEND THE EMULATION

ya know what yer problem is?

You don’t have one.

the grandmother complex

cymbals in space

WALK THE DEAD

we all float

upstream downriver

avarian avenue

Recurring Capricorn Mandelbrot

It can be very sad when somebody loses their faith, much as how terrifying it may be for one to gain ignorance through religion.

“I don’t care what you think.”

Its like a movie

how is this funny

why is this happening (to me)

meniscus

“its bigger than me”

alone again at last

time enough for one

things have brought me here

my job to get it done

<is>

I said whats your favorite band

She paused and then said nickelback

I told her that’s okay and then

I ordered her a pickleback

fuzzy warbles

agnes morehead

major blomie adrogeni

game show against humanity

drinking:breathing::thinking:dreaming

(before & after)

dealing with hypocrits

            (cards/snakes)

Eye believe in smoke and mirrors

the devil don’t like my style

insanistry

            corprit demogog

            house trafic

showrag

antideluvian

you write the book

I pay the bills

scarland

three-fold mysteries of the universe

undeveloped

under construction

“breaking news, the news is breaking.”

has been, never was

burn out and fade away

get old, die young

become everything you hate

“I’m a writer.”

“What do you write about?”

“What do you want me to say?”

Ice cream truck song as car alarm so people pay attention.

I’m between houses.

I don’t fuck to stay together.

I only sleep because everybody else does.

            narcomancy

Maybe you shouldn’t believe that I believe everything that you believe.

Psychedelafant

Building walls around our women and children

Bringing our fields to the men and the old

Smut Channel, Slutshamer

“Neither sanity, security, strategy nor integrity shall be impunged by a commanding officer.”

LYFET LIVYTH

can’t blame me for trying

so thank you for everything

“She misses who I used to be, that goes without saying. It’s hard for her to miss who I am when she doesn’t know me anymore.”

second thoughts without action

“Rehab TV”

a Reality TV Show Rehab Reality TV Show

Truman Show Syndrome

            “Can I help?”

heres a pitch and I hope you

catch it rather than try to swing.

glass is sand

like corn dogs are cereal

good women don’t have their kids all at once.

Boy was I wrong

weedont needat we got TENDONS

AHTF is NOT funny.

PROCEST FOODS ARE CERTAINLY BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH, BUT WHAT ARE THEY GOOD FOR? LONGEVITY, THE HUMAN CONDITION? WE DON’T THINK SO.

I know this town is full of sorrry suckers and that I won’t see past this point of view

Baring teeth only got is so far. We became famous overnight.

Is this how such and such all began? as a record of improvemen

How was it? i mean how did it happen

HEET /HEAT

DETH/ LOSS

HUMid,anITY

cross contamination/product placement

to live in ones car

looks much different from

to live out of ones car

EARTHWORM

the customer survives

ADM Pt. 2

     I had dreamt early in the race that we were in fact running in opposite directions. Walking towards a mirror as it progresses forward, the background strangely receding.

     In the realm of appreciation, I sacrifice control for command, a means of balancing both personal and professional checks. Let the record show that we have not skipped tracks just to face the music. What the fox is saying is certainly negligible considering its political bias.

Forked tongue and forces at work

they can never keep us a p a r t

the touch of metal and taste of skin

Fucked up, restless, counting my friends

I have no proof of your selfishness

not a particularly nice cut of meat you have

to cook it before it falls from the bone

james bond meets Alfred Hitchcock

     a sheer sense of irony

     “my problems and your plans. . . “

It is war itself which has become mechanized

and as long as we remain standing idly by

then it will certainly strive in attempt to survive

S.S. Relationship

a message from the other side,

painstakingly recorded

we all just want a self to control

you owe me not

Black Mirror Contradiction

dollars and cents, souls and light

philosophy and politics

sleep aids on a daily basis

what is there and what is it like

Red, White, Black or Blue

Entropy and Exergy

Presume the Omission

       in food stamp fraud

Places and Things

Playing bass with a backpack on,

in my grandmothers soccer field

A special circle of hell

for the self-inflicted

In-house barber

“I’ve showed you everything there is to know and now I’m done with you.”

Filming in Progress- - -

Sex Axe

Looking up the moon

this has all happened before

and everyone knows it.

Injustice, we trust.♥

Samhsa and liquor control.

Brick or mortar

the transference of souls

Regular scripture, regular schedule

Humans against robots since 1999

Of Purpose and Freedom:

demonic and devilish lifestyles.

that being said, pain is a warning- -

not to mention, goes without saying,

“EXCISION IS A SIN. . . ”

Reason, Logic, Sense

may as well have happened 200 years ago

Library of Libraries

Kissing his cheek before the king

and his grandfather was younger

than we are now

In our bubble we may think and

speak in any way we want,

while they can’t afford it.

AGGREGATE

with me as the key,

we are locked

insufficiently.

terror, intimidation

ageless, sustainable

genre-ration gap

a Rose among garbage

How is yours more valid?

genetic, made up

switchin skin, swappin spit

pop up snapshot better times

birth, life, death control

past, present in future

Formal Sex

In Tuition

Able bodies, able minds

Anamerican Dreams

Get Born

Pneuma Hagion

Perfect again

Shell shake

Bad light

Do better, try harder

Rich Cells

“Bread and Circus”

Love Crimes

Singers and Swingers, Singles and Stingers

Shiny Productions/A Royal We Presentations

Betty Boop’s Grandfather

(Dags)

A Year in Paradise by Floyd Shmoe

Wilco Shmilco

I’ve presumed your promiscuity;

theres nothing I can do- -

and sacrificed my hard work,

at the chance of a better world.

Rights of Passage;

my hereditary inheritance,

for I am inherently

geneticist.

Hurting the stupidface around you,

fell from heaven, killing me.

“Being famous means becoming

friends with everyone you

don’t like. . .”

Skeptix

Duezies

Scruples 

SCOVILLE, az

How can you know if you can’t remember?

hundreds die because thousands live

very well and if that isn’t war then

I don’t know what is.

the shit that’s hitting the fan

has an orange face

and a bad combover.

gladly suck my train

America’s passed time

symptoms of the problem

Why would anyone choose to live here?

Stupid Robot Voice.

No Deal Ordeal

Genreration Gap. . .

“i’m thinking I’m shrinking”

~paranalysis~

art is never two-sided.

“. . the systematic breakdown of bureaucratic infrastructure, as well as the nuclear family.”

Polly Gamma

Peanuts/Popcorn

Croutons/Croissants

Marshmallows/Mushrooms

Celebration, FL

alien gargle

excision

NUiSANCE

NAUXEA

Awesome, guys

“I DONT WANT TO GO TO WORK TODAY”

Animerica

Single Layer System

Prove me good, prove me wrong

Idiosynthetic

Intended affect

this honest truth

zero is a number

tea rust lines hercup

ankles over elbows

whatever you are with eyes closed

Marshmellow

I used to get confused

Sauce facsimile

convenience, coincidence, situation, routine

Baby’s first grand

contiguous

past-present in future

convenient customs

courage and confidence.

Principles/policies

Exploding Balloons of Paint

“This is the girl. . .”

Good Weed/Marijuana Control Board

Retroactive anticipation

Being John McLaughlin

they’re fuckin chicken in our shoes

can’t you see that, you communist?

you dramatist?

Brokendown memories fit neatly

stuck in a shower, sifting thru shit

skirting the issue, cleansing the uniform

saved for a special occasion

Support/Endorse

Insurance/Assurance

. . . church and steak. . .

Barfly and Grotesque

Pledge/Plight

Sick Again?

comfort junk   

I don’t have to ask, I know you do

I don’t have to, I know you

I don’t, you do

Manifest Density, proximation

honesty and courage, confidence

sum joke

drooling in my sleep

fried optic nerve

post void dribbling

playing my cards

biding my time

dags in idiosynthesis

locks on the lightswitches

“People are interested

In being afraid. . .”

     Parkinson

     Heisenberg

+all we have is now~

Stained glass teeth, shattered like icicles

condone compost complacent conduct

predicting what isn’t a waste of time

a difficult job, necessary and practically impossible

saved bythe exploits of my siblings children

treating the system as a symptom of the cure

Reigning cats or dogs, influence and glory

Overhead lighting versus overwhelming miasma

Ray Cyst of the Tumor Black Esophagus

speaking the mind in assumably generalized tongue

croney communism works in practice not in theory

choices and decisions, a mother or a father

“which style sentence is more expensive?”

overreach, undergrasp, enforcement or entrapment

legislation and regulation

men’s deliberation

academic and creative education

doug pants and bettys grandfather

turning a blind ear upon subjects of misuse

how will history revise our apparent debt to ourselves

your smug bias will not save your prejudice. . .

the influence of ignorance, (make no mistake

Do not confuse my naivete for give-ness

Integrative social disposition, integral integrity)

Hack Attack

Hijack attack

Where do depressed people go on vacation?

Malaisia (not funny)

Anamerica, antimatter

unwritten rule, unspoken agreement

jacks magic beans

“I don’t want to go to work today”

one-sided, narrow minded

hunting tracking trailing timing

necessary compliance

the quantum generator

“prone. . .”

your demise or my escape

waiting for the day to be over

so my night may begin

TIMEXLIFE

Ben Panther

Addiction/obsession

Siege Perilous

Plantage: Quality, quantity

Life or death

anomalous kiss

a ray of beverages

wayout

decked-out hearse

a vision, a version, a void and a veil

give in, half a chance

love my rotten tooth

monologue

quinidine

“Let me ask you a question”

 Can I

Black Philip

The Place With No Stairs

Constant Sobriety

I don’t like your problems

sarcastic ignorant

mass transit, fossil fuel

trust issue

atheism, anarchism, apathism

The Cloud/tabula rasa

“one day at a time. . .”

“all god’s children got shoes”

a rudimentary form

f-men

Love, 21-

hand in the hand

just a twig

FRANK BACON

sitting upon bed

the monkey and the type-writer, 9 years a part

in-stead, arrowspace

Recurring Doors

Dave’s Foundation

“Imposing the hypothetical. . .”

S P E L L

conscious observer, conscientious objector

living in pain, living with disabilitys (or not)

middling creatures meddling problems

two bifurcated dichotomies

chefs excuse/the decider

Unholy matrimoney

heathen/heretic

The Great Sorting

Window Legacy

Validating my human participation

FLOW

Soular House

Simultanagnosia

tyranny, misandry, scrutiny

Respect and understanding

adoration and admiration

appearance and experience

Get Rich Quick

The Legitimization of Man vs Machine

Interval Interstice

Physicians and Physicists

Medicine as science

Government is artificial intelligence

nose Blind

Chief Executive Officer

bark or bite, fight or flight

The Error of your Ways

My cat is a terrorist

Fight the good fight

Symptoms of addictions

Subconscious Revenue

Support the Minimum Wage

The Efficacy of Human Origin

Commercial consumables

Breaking news the news is breaking

Causers causes the cures it causes

Saving it for later

DREAM COME TRUE

Texturamitazisch (wears my hat)

The Exertainment (what time is it)

Cafe Decaf (this isn’t the deaf cafe)

April May (all in to get her)

Skeptix (How things aren’t)

Duezies (Everyones got one)

Scruples (paper or plastic)

Harvery Ridpath (Everything Else)

Hotel Monaco (high ceilings/Low ceiling Fans)

Herschel Wallace (Stay at home prophet)

Quadruple chocolate stout float

Capital Agenda Experience

Data Used is Data Lost

Torture, torment, command and control

What?

Hyperbolic Guilt Chamber (quantum generator)

On Bored

Genius is always two-sided

GRATIFICATION

Better Than Nothing

Pushy Pully

Beyond the Horizon

Human Doing

PRONE to Discourse. . . a Second Language

     “love is the answer. . .”

Lest we Forget

~highly critical~

water well drawn

original source

surface conditioning

fringe invester

Dancing in Shadows

a diction, a tension

case study, food play

head Line news

cat trainer, dishwasher, bartender, video operator

Royal Mutt

Temporal Lobe

Isosceles Hypotenuse

Speakerphone Test

Sharp-tongued, bitter lipped

I’m (in love with/leaving) you

Wormholes are black, also

Dash off, skip the formalities

Define Nothing.

impose a person upon you

Visibility

FAKE

Sometimes I scare myself

inducive inclusive, injustise, injestion

abstraction by sedition

Hardcover Checkouts

complaisance

Silent bodies, Blank Hears   

Rich you will; the same thing

over and over, allowing it to sound good

becoming friends with everyone you don’t like

just game; only just, Read just

of thoughts and feeling, Truth and Meaning

of comfort and pleasure, ignorance and

judgement; simultanagnostic-akratic

healthy, normal, relative aspirations

adhere to anticipated abolitions

degradent, bad and wrong

as for her device

deaf in Texas

get ahead, why even try

Led to believe a lie

Biodegradable disc,

observable-

outcome.

acquired taste, parallel vision

The hourglass spilling over

“I don’t want to be here anymore”

Tell us a free one

are problems our obvious and alone

made of other animals, through the jungle

the girls left us for our own devices

traps we set and forgot about the beast

Running back to a stark civilization

a tennis court by the cold cold beach

My brother knows no true consolation

we gave them the flaming sword to protect

and give them something nice to do

courtesy is never perfectly simple

Paradigmatique-mesmerisation

Seem Less liKe moRe KinD

Wellness/Weakness

in best interests

Leave it better than you left it

“Everything happens for a reason,

and it only has to happen twice. . .”

twelve beef

Bread and Circus

Cohesive coherent

Get fixed, stay broke

Time DilatioN

Exact science and accuracy

Henry Jameson

Couch Surfin’

The Influence of Ignorance

went the other way

the hyerarckichal expanse

Static Void

Public Investigator; Negative Psychology

Acting Out

organic/synthetic

catalysm

Sabi Wabi

inefficient/insecure (Bills)

“Someone’s gotta push the buttons. . .”

Loss of WorLds(ill-Literate)

hardcover/paperback (checkout crisis)

work done

custom/tradition

like minds think theyre great

and good to be around

book of antonyms

intake/impact

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Ambiguous Discrepancy Management Part 1

                This kind of seems like a waiting room, except for the lack of tables with magazines. It’s just cold enough, loud enough and bright enough to be barely annoying and extremely uncomftrable. I’m used to it, nothing new. Yes I’m used to waiting, the clicking tock, vegetative fruition. Am I getting everything I wanted? Hard to tell, difficult to say. Who have I become and where has it been. All my life seems to be slipping away through sifting fingers, expecting chunks. But they won’t come if you don’t make them, consciously, intentionally, against such best intentions once provoked and never recalled. The flow has me because it never stops, rushing wind makes a sound like a silent voice, not quite audible and definitely misunderstood. There are no plants here, either. True or plastic. All the art on the wall is nothing less than informational. The seats hard metal. The doors glass. Everyone waiting to go, nobody staying simply for the perpetuated existence of factual self. We simply don’t have the time for that. Now is it the time to go, somewhere else that we have never seen without also being.

Darkness. . . I hate this place. I hate tweakers, like a glitch in the system. I must take care of my value while proving my worth. But I am literally overwhelmed, with nowhere else to go. I am meant to be here, with antequated technology, amid harbingers of desultory circumlocution.

     I am interested in time dilation, that is a process of adjusting the speed of growth and change. This is not, however, practically evident. It can only be experienced, first hand. No matter how we try, we cannot escape.

     “Observation is apparently the cause of most impurities.”

     At least there is no placard visible, limiting my stay. That’s between me and the sun and my gradually stiffening moustache. Forlorn duress. Bad trip. Bad vibes. Good memories. Warm ones that don’t quit that don’t give up. They couldn’t possibly appreciate me if they don’t know me for everything I do. They said that I didn’t do anything wrong. Right. I was very particular and methodical, my intention only to change things. God I Hate This Song.

     this train that I am on was about six and a half hours late last time I checked, which would put me at arriving after midnight. It had been warm in here, I took something of a nap and it has become frigid. Wherever I am now, it is dark outside and early everywhere.

     I have enough money for coffee at dawn, and then for the last train after I had gotten there but it seems I will miss the last one of the day. I don’t know what she’s gonna do because I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I’ll need to find a phone to call her upon in the morning, when I know she is awake. Maybe I’ll sleep at the station. Maybe she’ll drive all that way and pick me up anyway. Still, I would have been on this thing too long in the first place.

Belong in ninety degree rooms

Peek around corners, sit shaking still

SURVIVORS, RESERVOIRS (see natasha)

Protein building blocks of life

excision, tisn’t the season

a competentive wage

Prisacoleninencusol, Floral Shoppe

all is full of love, root beer on the gun

custodienne, comedienne, presidette

melt my meltor, texturamitazisch

scarring, jarring, early days

unnegative reaction

what is quantum

evil isn’t as evil don’t

sick sad tired hungry and poor

the ADM makes it all okay

goodness me, voluntary consent

Cartoon Stripes, around the arms.

you’ll be here in spirit but that don’t pay the bills.

I’ll never be like them, talking about people

     that I don’t know.

even the shows, I can’t remember so long ago.

fun shows; theres been commercials for fifteen minutes.

     contaminance

white sorrow, Black widow

what’s wrong with kids today? It Depends.

what choice do we have but to punish him for her bad behavior?

a relative value of interminate size.

determinant time, inescapable system.

The breakdown of nuclear family structure.

And unpredictability of inevitable participation.

IMPRISMANT

BREATHING HAIR

SURFACE CONDITION

EARTHLY NATURE

SOLUBIXITY

NINETY-9 CHANCES

SPORTING AREA

DEFINITIV

PRECISIO

paper trail, carbon footprint

You could say I’m anti-military because I think that we could be doing something so much more wholesome and fulfilling that fighting and killing each other with our own personal versions of barbarous warriors. Yea, I declare that we cannot, will not and do not pioneer new terrain until we work together as an unified entity. There is still so much of our undocumented universe that we don’t understand and don’t have the hope or means to do so. We only work unto the ends of the best and not the inevitably, necessarily better. Participation is key, and those who choose to participate shall be rewarded of simultaneous dreams and knowledge, to surpass those who decide otherwise. First, we must look around to see what there is. And then, we must look to ourselves to see what we may do. The third thing is very much like the first because it is not directly about ourselves, but each other, and this is where the continuity of participation        comes into play.

Of us, for them

we know not what we do

GRADUATED (generational) Cooking

celestial terestrial instrumental

I like to think I don’t miss too much

BASQUIAT (man dies)

Not about to sell my soul

Burn Control (th’world on fyre)

good time investments

For entertainment Purposes only

Pronounced Head

Houseband

blurring the line between artists and dealers

tiny robots, after me, in my blood stream, in my dreams

The Whims of Demons

Metal Straws and Ice

something exists that reminds me of her,

something in this takes me back to then.

Time is not relative. Time is a unit of relativity. The things bound by time are relative to each other through time. But time itself either is or it isn’t, and if it may not be, then it cannot be relative.

Negative existence is potential, or entropy. It is the difference between what was and what will be. This force is contained within and exerted upon what is.

Music is for everyone, of no one, by someone, and to anyone.

I’m in a relationship with myself and Robots, breaking up.

Hardbound is forever, I don’t care anymore.

Its true my mind is human shaped and

so is yours but it is the wrong size.

The city is a woman.

Sometime in the distant future. . .

If we made the switch to using buttons as currency then most clothing and machines would become unpopular and/or useless.

I’m supposed to be fifteen when all of this supposedly takes place.

     the confusion is only a misunderstanding

     when I was living in that crawlspace I really came into the solution of externalised perspective, adapting to unforeseen principle through invariable character. The inmates kept me company when I had no one to rely on and now I find it hard to let them go. I left behind landfills which to my understanding went to an overjoyed patron and so good use, maybe I will see them again though I don’t count on it. Nobody should have to go through what I did but most people should have the opportunity at least twice, because if everything happens for a reason that much becomes all the more clear the second time round. I also shared the space with some small rodent, which I didn’t mind as long as it didn’t poop on my stuff. The guys on the lease were somewhat understandably out for blood which I was willing to comply, though we never did catch the bastard as far as I remember. They don’t live there anymore though I am quite certain that both of them still remain in the city and I hope to see each of them in person upon my return. I know they remember me and probably wouldn’t mind seeing me either.

     A different shaped full bottle wine glass for each bartender. She wanted the one in front of me, made of dark glass, but she was sold the square one by all the employees working against her. She sensed my admiration, turned to me and said, “gay?” I shook my head. “we should smoke pot.” I nodded. That dubonnet tastes like mushrooms. It was crowded around the bar, I had to leave my hat which I was fine with once I quickly came to terms. I got my phone from charging in pieces, struggling to put it back together as we left the building. When we managed to get outside I recognized where we were and the sun quickly setting. Scrambling into a tan cadillac, the drivers seat was all the way back, obstructing entry. By that time it was black out, heavy traffic, cops everywhere. We tried to play it low key but our driver was making comically terrible mistakes. It was somehow the future, as if I had been gone a long time. I told them I knew a place where we could get out of the car but I believe I neglected to inform them the location and how to get there. So we continued to smoke in the car, driving in circles, paranoid.

I’m pretty sure I know just about as much as I don’t know, because I can only think of one thing at a time. There are, in fact two aspects to think of yet I must decide upon which one to concentrate on. This one is only half of the initial aspects, the initial one, and so through the process of observable thought we may never truly revert back to the original. Every time you return to a concept, it is actually a new one. The more I learn, the more I forget. The more I know, the less I learn. The more I forget, the less I know. And so on.

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Glenfiddie

            It was on the bus that it was clear that we were on a field trip to Ireland, and apparently I had earned the favor of buying the big guy his choice of shot when we got there. I changed compartments, set down my large blank triangle box with a top and bottom on the far side table below the mirror, noted it was almost just noon and I was the first one there, indicated to the younger bartender which alcohol I wanted, which was more than 20 a shot, and continued to look at the beer selection. He set the two glasses of clear liquid upon the bar, the older mentioned double fisting but I said I was waiting for someone. First, bottles, then draft, I finally settled on Guiness, but when the older one opened a new bottle and started pouring we chanted “Beer, beer!” and I apologized. By then it was quite crowded.

            Suddenly I was outside behind bars with the rest of the boys and we spotted a comrade who was crying, witnessing a fight across the way. Rubber hats were in season, black and thick like tires, but ours were cracked and split, green around the edges. I climbed the wrought iron and walked the side, past desperate people of little attention. A broken doll. Fog and blue across the way. I was just a kid then.